Recalibrate: you are so worth it.
A few weeks ago, I was saying to both my daughter and son at different times that my laptop was running really slow.
Their responses were similar. Had I cleared my desktop and did I have lots of programs opened and running in the background.
I think I was hoping that they would contradict each other and one of them would offer to resolve the problem.
This took me back to a few years ago.
The IT manager of the organization where I worked was issuing new laptops.
I was hoping that he would give me a new one as mine was running slow and losing charge quickly.
After looking at my laptop, he asked about the state of my desktop and how many programs I had running in the background.
He made it clear that the more files I saved on my desktop and the more programs I had open and running, the slower my laptop would be.
I was disappointed as I thought a newer laptop would solve the problem.
I was pleased with myself for saving files within easy reach on my desktop but in reality, I was working much slower as it took a while to find what I was looking for.
The IT manager encouraged me to delete what I no longer needed, particularly out of date files and duplication and to store files in folders.
For a while my desktop was tidy, and files were stored neatly and purposefully. My laptop worked efficiently.
Here I was now feeling frustrated with my 2 grown up children.
I dodged and tried to wiggle out of doing this task, but I needed to sort this myself.
It got me thinking about when we dodge or avoid those onerous tasks or procrastinate when we fear failing or feeling overwhelmed.
I was also reflecting on those maladjusted thoughts and feelings which we’ve left running in the background. Similar to my laptop, we can be slowed down or be misaligned.
How sluggish, prickly and unproductive we become.
I wondered about those intentional times we need for retreating, re-calibrating and fine tuning where we make those necessary changes to become the version of ourselves which is blossoming and thriving.